Saturday, July 19, 2008



1 John 4:8  He that loveth not, knoweth not God; for God is Love.



What a beautiful scripture, God is love.  I woke up this morning and felt such peace and love from my heavenly father. It's a beautiful day, a wonderful day that the Lord has made.

I went outside and started taking in the day and all it's splendor.  A tiny little flower has opened it's sweet face and shows it's beauty and color, God is BIG.  As I looked around, I saw a butterfly and gosh was it beautiful.  The sweet little flowers on my tree with their delicate tiny petals, dancing in the sun light. Cotton candy clouds, set up in the sky so blue and so happy, God is HUGE, God is LOVE.

I walked over to my garden hose and turned on the water to give my flowers a drink, walked around the yard and pulled up weeds.  That's when it hit me, when I am still, when I am quiet and just taking in the awesome love of my Father, I see it everywhere.  I thought about how sometimes we get so busy, we only see weeds in our life and not the beauty.  I thought about all the incredible ways God speaks to us and shows his love to us every single day.

The faithful readers of my journal know that I come from a very broken background.  They know the black hole I once found myself in and how utterly hopeless it all felt. I never even believed in being happy back then, just hoping to make it through life and raise my children.  Today, I am a new creation in HIM, because of his love and faithfulness to me.



The world is hurting. The violence and cruelty of people knows no bounds.  I use to feel hopeless because of it but now, because of my heavenly father and the things he teaches me about love, I see past the outer appearances of people and into their hearts that are so hopelessly broken. I am humbled by that because I know it's the work my father has done in me, because I trust him.

Healing is a journey that few can define.  How it happens, the steps we go through ...  they seem to be impossible for me to put into words other than, God is HUGE.  Taking my eyes off of myself and seeing others around me suffering, that's God's perfect love.  Loving the Lord so much that I allow him to control my thoughts, my hopes and dreams and actions, that's healing.

People want to be loved, it's how God created us.  The scripture says that Love is the greatest gift from God.

Corinthians 13: 12-13 For now we see through a glass, darkly, but then face to face: now I know in part, but then shall I know even as also I am known.  And now abideth faith, hope, love, these three, but the greatest of these is love.

First God taught me how much he loves me, through that I learned to love him and trust him.  Loving God, everything comes to us after that.



Matthew 6:33  Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his Righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

That's what the author of Matthew says. Though there is no real evidence of the identity of the author of Matthew, it is suggested from early times, it is Matthew, the disciple of Jesus.

God takes care of all of our needs, food, drink, clothes, a home, wisdom, our hearts, minds, everything. He cares about every single detail of our lives.  His concern for us is deeper and more profound than we can possibly imagine.

To know Love, as the Father has created it in all it's vastness and depth, there truly is no greater gift.  It's NOT like the world defines it, not about lust and passion and control, our Fathers love is about healing, genuine heart that is devoted and faithful and true.  It's about completeness, being made whole, being humbled.

Psalms 34:8 Oh taste and see that the Lord is good.  Blessed is the man that trusts in HIM.



Oh Lord, we living in such a hurting world.  Lord I am so thankful and so humbled that you love me and pour out your loving kindness and compassion on me, keep me humble.  Lord I pray for those who are reading my journal today.  I pray Lord they will stop, open their hearts to you, let you teach them your love for them and find their completeness in YOU first.  I pray that I can let my light so shine before man, they will see the joy in my heart and want what I have.  It's you Lord, you are my everything.  God bless the person reading this, minister to their heart, one person at a time and let love have it's perfect work in this world. Thank you most humbly for the words you spoke to my heart this morning, teaching me the power of YOUR love.

Romans 8:28 And we know ALL things work together for good for those who love the Lord and who's trust is in him.



Your devoted servant.



Friday, July 4, 2008





Hello to everyone who stumbles upon my journal today or who purposefully chooses to come visit.  I woke up this morning with such gratitude in my heart for the freedom that this day represents.  As I opened my eyes and laId there, listening to the tiny birds, sing their songs, I thought about the men and women all over the world who make this day possible for me.



Over two hundred years ago, our forefathers, purposed in their hearts to write the constitution of the United States.  The First Amendment, which clearly outlines our rights to freedom, whether it be freedom of speech, freedom of religion, our right to bare arms and many others rights in our Great Country, this United States of America.  Men who based their values on our Heavenly Father whom they knew with certainty, was and is the ruler of all things.

It would seem that today, the leaders of our country have forgotten who rules all things.  It would seem that our leaders, struggle to interpret the very words of our first amendment with a mind set on compromise to keep everyone happy.

In 1962 when the very first act of taking God out of our children's right to pray in school, our country has spiraled downward.  Our Government proudly and forcefully takes God out of our schools, off of our Government buildings, out of our military and off of our money.  I ask you, where does that leave those of us who Believe in he who dwells in the secrete place of the most high?



Proverbs 3: 1-4

My son, forget not my laws; But let thine heart keep my commandments; For length of days, and long life; And peace, shall they add to thee, Let not mercy and truth forsake thee: Bind them about thy neck Write them upon the table of thine heart:  So shalt thou find favor and good understanding In the sight of God and men.

Somewhere today, there is a soldier who fights back the tears in his heart to find the courage to face another day of violence in an effort to protect our freedom.  Somewhere today, there is a soldier who misses their family more than words can possibly express and just wants to come home.  Somewhere there is a soldier who only has memories of the simple things in life like picnics and watermelon and tossing a ball with their son. Somewhere, there are soldiers that started this day on their knees, praying to our Heavenly Father to watch over them, protect them, give them the strength, endurance and perseverance to go through another day and fight for our freedom.

As I sit here and ponder this day and the celebrations that will take place all over The United States, I wonder how many of us will reflect on our soldiers who lay their very lives on the line for our freedom.  I wonder about the hearts of those men and women who selfishly fight to take away our very rights that these men and women fight to protect.  It's not just our enemies in other countries that we need to protect ourselves from but also the men and women in this country who place themselves above our Savior and feel they some how have the right to tell me I can not speak of my heavenly father in public.

It is not these men and women whom our soldiers turn too in the middle of their night when fear grips their hearts and they feel they can't face another day.  It is not these men and women whom our soldier looks too for their safety and peace of mind.  It is not these men and women who our soldiers pray too for protection.  It's our heavenly father who still sits high on the throne and holds the whole world in his hands.

My prayer today is that there will be peace.  I pray for the soldiers who bravely face our enemies and fight for our freedom.  Lord, I pray that on this day and every day, you pour out your grace, compassion and mercy on our soldiers and keep them in your mighty hands.  Give them joy that only you can give them.  Speak to their hearts and remind them that you are a mighty and powerful God and that you Lord and only you, have the power to protect them and keep them this day and always.

Today, I honor and pray for blessings over our soldier everywhere.  Thank you for all that you do to make it possible for me to wake up in a land that is free and safe and plentiful.  If it were not for you, I know that I would not be free.  911 is a constant reminder to me that our enemies do hate us.  It reminds me that they have no regard for the lives in this great country of the United States of America.  Today, I honor our troops.


Special thanks to you, Sugar for the beautiful graphics that you bless me with.