Hello everyone. Been a while since I've written in my journal. I came on to talk about my daughter but it would appear that my last entry was about her too so maybe I will just chat for a little bit.
Been thinking about the horrible thing that happened in Virginia. I saw that on the news and just broke down and cried. I guess it's because it was such a senseless and horrible thing to have happen and each person who died, has their very own tragedy and loss and story. The news chases a story like that and before you know it, every single news station, radio, newspaper, media there is, has their own take on the events and what they want to get out.
My heart goes out to every single life that it has touched. Even the parents of the student who killed all those people, how incredibly sad that must be for them personally. I know what it's like to wake up one day and everything seems fine and the next minute, your whole life is shattered because of some senseless act by someone who does not have the love of God in their hearts. I pray for all of those people and the people who see it and hear about it that the Lord would just cover them with his love and compassion and strength and lift them above all the things in this world and give them the peace that passes all understanding. I pray that the Lord would begin to work a healing in their hearts and that he could use this tragedy to bring people closer to him and the wisdom that comes in making a personal choice to have the Lord in their lives and guiding their every step, would be given to all.
It's clear to me that Satan has his target set on our children. It's clear to me that there is nothing he won't use to destroy their lives, our families and even our hope.
We all seem to know that to some degree but it takes on a whole new meaning when it's a personal tragedy in which your very own child is a victim. Even though my daughter is not dead, she is gone from my life as though the world just opened up and swallowed her up. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of her. There is not a day that goes by that I do not miss her. There is not a day that goes by that I don't feel her or long to have her in my life again or pray for a miracle.
We need to be faithful to pray for our children and our families because that is where Satan finds his hold on us and does so much damage to our lives. I've been in such a funk lately and I felt like I've said it all to God and he just isn't listening or doing anything. I thought, it's ok to not talk to God because I've said it all and there's nothing left to say. Satan loved that and I started feeling the separation from God and I do not like that at all. So I just tell God, I need you Lord. When I don't know what else to say, when I don't feel like praising him or feel the joy in my heart, the one thing that never ever stops is my need for the Lord.
I pray that people who read this will know how important it is to keep their relationship with God alive, even when they don't feel him. The fact remains, God never leaves us nor forsakes us and he is the saving grace and hope we all need.
To those of you who know what it's like to loose a child for any reason or in any way, my heart goes out to you. I encourage you to turn to the Lord and just let him hold you in his loving arms and heal your hearts. The world lacks way too much love. We need to love each other and encourage each other and lift each other up and never ever forget who is in control. God bless you all. Please keep praying for my daughter. I miss her so and to those people who lost their child in this horrible killing spree in Virginia, God bless you. Most humbly.
Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly for he shall be like the tree that is planted by the water.
They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings as eagles. They shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. Teach me Lord to wait.