Tuesday, June 27, 2006

THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE

If I were to sit and write a book of the things that I have been through in less than ten years, I'm sure many would doubt me and even want proof.  There is proof, documented somewhere but I am not concerned about proving anything, just telling my testimony.

One day, my husband and I were going along through life, and we thought everything was perfect, planned for, secured and life was great.  In a moment, one disaster after another happened and our lives fell apart.  We lost almost everything we had because of one thing after another that could not be avoided.

His injury started everything and the end result was poverty, a destroyed home, his health, divorce, death, you name it.  I could not understand what was happening or why and when my marriage fell apart, it was almost more than I could bare.  I still prayed every day and asked the Lord to help me.  I was left with two children to raise completely on my own and my husband was no longer in the picture.

From the time of his injury to the the day he left, I can't even begin to tell you all that happened but I sure thought of Job a whole lot.  I even lost my friends and well, everything.  My one friend who stuck it out with me ended up being someone I fell deeply in love with.  I can't even express it with words but I have never loved like that in my life.  Three and a half years later, he betrayed me and left me too.

I was angry, didn't understand, couldn't figure out what I did wrong.  I prayed every day and I spent time with the Lord but still,  my whole life was gone before my eyes.  I thought I was going to die from a broken heart,  I kept thinking, is this it?  Is Satan going to be allowed to destroy me??  What is it I need to do in order to have God's blessing in my life?  Why do I try so hard to be a good person and everything is such a tremendous struggle for me?

After I lost my friend, I was so closed over.  I just wanted to be dead because if God was against, what hope could I possibly have?  I started praying for the Lord to heal my heart, to give me a desire to let go of it all and heal my heart.  I began reading the old testament and decided to getinto the word of God every day, no matter what.  Here I am, seven months later and wow, what an awesome God we serve.  I realize now that not only did the Lord never leave me, he also blessed me in ways I couldn't hope for.  I have relationship with him and he is the safety net of my life because I can always count on him. My heart is completely healed but if you asked me how it happened, all I can say is that it took one step of faith after another.

Today, I am able to share my testimony with people and they listen.  They listen because I've lived through every horrible thing that can happen to us as humans and I still speak of the Lord, how much he loves me and how important it is to look to him and only him for all my needs.  I feel so blessed to be able to reach out to others and help them see how much God loves us, even when everything is falling a part around us.

You see, in order to build new, you have to tare down the old.  One piece at a time, with faith, prayer, relationship with God, it just all comes together in a miraculous way that words can not explain.

This world is becoming such a cruel and hateful place to live.  I see people suffering all the time with death, sickness, abuse, pain.  I know in my heart that God is in control, when we give our lives to him completely and trust him and live according to his will, he makes everything beautiful in his time.

Each time that I come up against something that Satan is throwing at me, I trust the Lord, even when it makes no sense.  Each time, I become stronger in the Lord, my faith grows and my relationship with God grows.  I am no longer afraid of what Satan can do to me because God is in control and I understand that so much more than I ever have.

Being in the word of God is the key.  Knowing his word, his direction, his promises, his truth, his history of saving people, it just builds your faith and gives you confidnece that he will not put more on you than you can handle and he does have a purpose.  Our hope should be to serve him better and know him better and when we focus our hearts on him and the things he has for us, not the worldy things, we find we are so richly blessed by him.

I encourage anyone and everyone to get out their Bible, dust it off and get into the word of God.  It might not hit you right away, it didn't me but slowly, day by day, I realized that I need to praise God at all times, no matter what is happening and not give Satan a foot hold to depression and fear and sorrow.  God sits on the throne, he lives and he rules and in the end, he is the one we stand before.

If you ask me if my life is perfect today, I tell you no.  If you ask me if all the trials and struggles are over, I tell you no again.  I still go through tremendous trials and loneliness is one of the worst.  What I will say is that by sharing my story, I can give glory to the Lord for his faithfulness and love.  I have the assurance that I am never without hope and I trust in him with all my heart, soul and mind.

I would never say that it was all a loss but a gain because I am a better person for having gone through all that I have.  I'm stronger in the Lord than I've ever been and I tell you true, What a friend we have in Jesus.  God bless.

Friday, June 23, 2006

HELP US FATHER

HELP US FATHER

 

He prowls around each day and night, looking for a way to get in

To capture us with our weakness and wrap us up in sin

He knows he’s running out of time, the Lord will come back soon

To save all of his children from the pain and hurt and gloom

For those of us who know the truth, we see it all around

The sin of man is beating us, there’s no morals to be found

God had a plan when he made this world to give us abundant life

Now our choices are the very thing that cause us so much strife

Children all around us no longer sing sweet songs

Their parents beat and laugh at them, there’s something very wrong

I see the rich and famous, abuse their wealth and fame

Destruction by example, and they proudly speak their names

The elderly mistreated, no one to help them through

I ask you from my heart of hearts, what is there left to do

Violent crimes unpunished, people taking what’s not theirs

It’s just a daily happening and no one seems to care

He tells us in the last days, this all will come to pass

Hold onto all your armor to fight the evil mass

Yet all of us are Israelites, from the days oflong ago

Worshiping the wrong things like idols made of gold

Yet here we sit hopelessly, God why are you not here

To save us from this hurtful life and take away our tears

I went to church on Sunday and gave that poor man food

I read your word on Monday and only once was rude

On Tuesday I have dancing, I won’t have time for you

And Wednesday I go running, I have too much to do

Maybe Thursday I can find some time, it’s all up in the air

Except the time I set aside to color and cut my hair

God waits for us so patiently, to just call out his name

And put him first in everything and not be so ashamed

Acknowledge him as first and last and all the whole day through

Then stand and watch his faithfulness to keep his word to you.

Copyright ©2006 Poetry by ging

Sunday, June 18, 2006

FATHER'S DAY

Dear Heavenly Father:

Today is a day that the world has set aside to honor fathers, here on earth.  Lord there are those down here that do not have a father.  Generations of families that come from broken homes without a dad.  My heart is very sad because I see what it has done to my children and Lord, I'm just not enough to make up for the loss of a father.  I don't have a father either Lord, at least not here on earth.  How can a parent, any parent just up and walk away from their child when I'm finding it so hard to even let go and allow my children to grow up?

I see before me a child, so beautiful and unique in so many ways and yet she is struggling to figure out if she's a woman or a child.  Man says she has all the rights of an adult but Lord, you know that she is a child and so confused by life.

So Lord, my sweet heavenly father, thank you for who you are and that you never change.  Thank you that when it's hard, you do not run away and take the easy way out.  Thank you that you are the amazing example of a real man, with honor and integrity and truth.  Thank you Lord that when the world lets me down, you are always there.  Thank you that you are my daddy and I do not have to be like so many people who are hurting today because they have no daddy.  Thank you that I can be proud of you and that I can want my children to be like you, like I want to be just like you.

Thank you Lord for your compassion, listening ear, dedication, provision, instruction, love and many many more things.  I love you and even though people change, your laws stand true and last forever and ever. Thank you for the hope that I have for a better life, one day.  Thank you that I can proudly claim to be your child and feel the joy beaming from my soul, like a small child who is proud of their daddy.

Today, I say to you, Happy Father's Day Lord.  I pray that more men would want to be just like you. I'm so glad that I have the best daddy in this whole wide world. You.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

A GIFT FOR GOD

I woke up this morning thinking about the Lord because he's always the first one on my mind.  I was feeling so greatful to have him that I decided to write a poem for him because I love him so much.  I don't know what else to say other than please pray for one another because there is always a need.  God bless.

 

 
There Is No Friend Like You
 
Oh Lord I have a problem, so I'm bringing it to you
Because I know within my heart I can always count on you
This morning when I woke up, the first thing on my mind
Was to seek you out and be with you, the way I do each time
I feel so very lonely even though I know you're there
To hold me in your loving arms and let me know you care
I must be in a learning stage because the only thing I see
Is your word and loving presence teaching good and bad to me
Each day seems like the last one, everything feels the same
No one to tell my troubles to and only you remain
So I reach out for your sweet embrace, like I very often do
You put your arm around me, I have no friend like you
I see the world around me and I can't but feel your love
Not one thing here exists without you're blessing from above
The world around me breaks my heart, so selfish and unkind
Men are lovers of themselves and cruel hearted most the time
I feel your broken heart each day, I know you are so sad
No one is listening to your word the world is oh so bad
Help me to remember, the reason I am here
To love my neighbor as myself and wipe away their tears
I want to be your brilliant light and show this evil world
You are the king and blessed one and the reason I endure
Thank you for your loving kindness and the creations you designed
Like a tiny flower full of color or the shade tree that I find
In all I do and say each day let me express your love
To show you I'm thankful for your blessings from above 
Be with me as I rise each day and go out in the world
I thank you for the confidence, with you I can endure.
My only hope is you sweet Lord, one day to be with you
Until that day I'll run the race of faith in everything I do.
 
Copyright ©2006  Poetry by ging
 
dedicated to my loving Savior and best friend for loving me.

Sunday, June 4, 2006

GOD BLESS YOUR CHILDREN

GOD HAS PUT IT ON MY HEART TODAY, ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE WOLD WHO ARE ABUSED AND MISTREATEN.  IT DOES NOT MATTER IF YOU ARE YOUNG OR OLD, WE ARE ALL GOD'S CHILDREN AND PRECIOUS IN HIS SIGHT.  I AM THINKING ESPECIALLY OF ONE YOUNG WOMAN WHO WAS RECENTLY BEATEN SEVERELY AND MY HEART GOES OUT TO HER.  NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO BE VIOLENT WITH ANOTHER HUMAN BEING.  THE BIBLE TELLS  US ....... BLESSED ARE THE PEACE MAKERS.  IT IS NOT GOD'S PLAN FOR ANY OF US TO BE ABUSED IN ANY WAY.  I WROTE A POEM YEARS AGO ABOUT THIS VERY THING.  THE PERSON HAPPENED TO BE SOMEONE VERY NEAR AND DEAR TO ME, MYSELF.

LOOKING BACK, I STILL DO NOT KNOW WHY I ALLOWED ANYONE  TO MISTREAT ME OTHER THAN IT WAS SAFER TO STAY THAN TO LEAVE OR AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT MY ABUSER MADE ME THINK.  I PRAY WITH MY WHOLE HEART AND SOUL FOR ANYONE WHO IS LIVING IN FEAR. 

WE HAVE NOTHING TO FEAR BUT FEAR ITSELF.

GOD, HAVE MERCY ON YOUR CHILDREN.

 

Get Back What You Deserve


As I sit and watch the door, I worry when he’ll come,
He’ll find something to hit me for, no matter what I’ve done,
I wonder if there is a God, if so where has he been,
I think that he is scolding me, for a past or present sin,
I ask him for forgiveness, to make this go away,
It never seems to do it though, I think it’s here to stay,
When I was just a little girl, my daddy would tell me,
I always will protect you , just wait and you will see,
The world goes by and still I sit and wonder what went wrong,
My life is like a nightmare and all my hope seems gone,
I’m told that there is hope for me, someone will save my
life,
I don’t know how this could be true, I see nothing but strife,
One day I got my courage up and said, “ No more I say.”
You do not have the power to hold me here this way,
Now I live in peace and love and only thoughts remain,
It’s seems that God heard all my prays and now there’s
no more pain.

Copyright ©2006 Ging

 

Never stop believing that God holds you in the palm ofhis hand and he is with you even when you feel like he isn't.  Remeber, there is always something to pray about.  God bless and keep you and make his face to shine upon you.  Amen