Sunday, May 28, 2006


Happy Memorial Day -- please pray for our troops, families and leaders

Although this is Memorial Day weekend and our troops certainly need our attention and prayers, I feel a much more urgent need to speak about our Lord and Savior and the deceptions in the world today.  The Bible clearly tells us that in the last days we can expect deception to run ramped.  People challenge the word of God and the very truth about who God is.  I take that very personal and offensive.  I worry about people who are not grounded in the word of God and do not have the knowledge nor the scripture to fight such deception.  The Da Vinci Code offends me to no end.  Just the very suggestion that Jesus is not who he says he is makes the hair on the back of my neck stand up and makes it very difficult for me to not loose my temper and  react in a very harsh way.

What I say to those of you who are reading this is simply facts.  The Bible has been the number one selling book of all times, still to this day.  There have been many people in history who have set out to discredit the word of God.  Historians, archaeologists, theologians, scholars, the list goes on and on.  The end result has been that the Bible is the most accurate account of history to this day.

Millions of people have gone to see, The Da Vinci Code and the movies has made millions of dollars.  I remember it's opening night because I prayed against it with all my heart, soul and mind.  It is blasphemy of God and it's potential to have a negative impact on this country is mind boggling.  It breaks my heart that two of the men I have always admired would be a part of something like this but it just goes to show that being good and kind and thoughtful of others does not and will not get any of us to heaven.  Asking the Lord into your heart and giving him first place in your life and living according to his will, that is how you run the good race of faith and become a part of God's family.  It's black and white.

Even with this in mind, the deception and misleading of people, I am inspired to remind each and everyone who reads this that God is still on the throne and he still has the last say.  I see this recent attack of the enemy as a challenge to stand up for Jesus and not be swayed by lies.  We are soldiers of God and we have been given the armor to go to battle for the Lord and that's what we need to do.  Be soldiers for our Lord and fight the enemy and his deception.

I am reminded of the words, be on fire for Jesus.  If you stop and think about this, picture one tiny little spark, shaken up by the wind.  That tiny spark has the power to become a mighty blaze and to touch everything in it's path.  We are the spark, God is the wind.  Do not be fearful of the numbers of people who are deceived and want you to believe that we can not over come all things with the power of God on our side. That is a lie straight from the pit of hell.

Satan is on the prowl and even though I say that often, I will never stop saying it because he really is running out of time and he is seeking to take everyone with him that he can.  Like an acid that creeps and seeps into little crevices in your life, just to eat you up and destroy you.

I encourage you to guard your hearts and minds and to daily seek the word of God and become one with the Lord in truth and righteousness.  Do not be moved by any appearance, pull on all your hope and faith in the Lord and give Satan the beating he deserves in the name of Jesus.

Those of you who know me know that I have been in the battle of a life time with my daughter and now my son has decided that he doesn't want to do what he should be doing and the battle has carried over to him as well.  Only a Christian would understand me when I say that I am happy.  I stand firm on the word of God and his love for me and I will not be swayed and my children will serve the Lord.  My children will one day be mighty soldiers for Christ because it's God's promise to me that my life will be restored. It's my promise and I claim it in the name of Jesus.  No matter how long it takes, I will not give up, never loose hope in God.

My prayer is that the Lord make me a light to the world who teaches the truth in spirit and in love.  That all that see me might see my hope and faith in God to deliver my children and walk through this storm with confidence and honor.  I pray that the Lord be glorified when this battle is over and that my life might be a testimony to others that no matter where I find myself, the source of my being is the Lord and he shall overcome all things.  That I am like the tree planted by the water, grounded and rooted in the Lord.

God bless you all.

Friday, May 26, 2006


It's been a while since I have made any entry to my journal.  I've been so  occupied with this battle with the enemy over my daughter but the Lord has been faithful to help me get through.  I've been reading in the book of Job and how the Lord allowed satan to test him.  I have been reminded that just because you feel battle weary and beat up, maybe even removed from God's grace, it does not mean that you are.  The Bible gives us the information we need to fight any battle and to become victorious over our enemy, if only we stand firm and fight the evil in the world as a spiritual battle and not as a battle with man.

I have grown a lot since I started my journal.  I use to think that reading the word of God wasn't something I had time for or something that I could put on hold until once again I found myself in a battle, pleading for God's help.  I've always prayed but I'm telling you, there is something so powerful about reading God's word.   It gives you confidence, encouragement, weapons to beat the enemy, builds your faith, calms your spirit, teaches you so much.  That along with a good fellowship with other Christians, a strong prayer life and faith ......  you can and will stand against the evils of the world.

My heart is troubled because of the deceptions going on in this world today.  The more sensitive I become to the holy spirit, the more sensitive I become to sin and the evil in the world.  Satan is on the prowl and he is just looking for someone who opens up their life to it in any way.  The Da Vinci Code really bothers me a lot and I pray about it.  Such a deception for even some believers, little lone people who do not know the Lord.  I heard on the radio there is a man who claims that the Bible does not give us the tools to live life and face every day situations.  It grieves my heart as well as the Lords that anyone could say that, little lone tell the world.

The Bible clearly tells us that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.  I would never say anything that would cause anyone to doubt that God is who he says he is or suggest he does not give his children the knowledge to live life abundantly.

I pray that all of you who read this entry will be encouraged to stand firm against the attacks of the enemy.  Rather it be music, TV, books, immoral behavior, language ...... anything that could cause an opening for sin and an entry for the enemy to get a hold of your life.

The Lord is coming back and it may be very soon.  We all have to stand in judgement and be accountable for who we are here on earth and what we did for the Lord.  Do not let the enemy deceive you and rob you of your relationship with the Lord.  Stand firm and God bless you all.

Sunday, May 14, 2006



Truly I say that the Lord has the greatest knowledge when it comes to the value of a good mother.  I say this because personally, I have realized that being a mother who is devoted to her children is not always appreciated or rewarded here on earth.  For some this day is very sad.  There are those of you amoung up that have no relationship with their mother because of circumstances beyond their control. To them I say, bless your heart.  For others, there maybe those who's children want no relationship with their mother and do not see her value. Again, I say, bless your heart.

Some people are blessed with loving children and parents, I hope you know how fortunate you are.

This morning I woke up and the first thing on my mind after the Lord was my children.  The one day out of the year that they have to set aside and remember me.  It won't be a special day in my house, there's not been anyone to teach my children how blessed they are to have a mother like me.  I guess it's a question of maturity or maybe selflessness.  I don't know.  I adored my mother growing up and even to this day, I miss her with all my heart but she chose to walk away from me and my three brothers and there is nothing I can do to change it but pray.

I think for those of you who might be like me, it's important to remember that our eyes should be focused on the Lord and what he thinks of a mother.  When Jesus was on the cross, his very last words and concern were for John to take his mother into his home and care for her.  That's my comfort today, that I do what the Lord has called me to do.  I look to him for my value, not anyone else.  May God bless you and remind you of how special you are today and always.

Sunday, May 7, 2006


John 3:16 -- For God soooooo loved the world that he gave is only begotten son that who so ever believes in him should not perish but have ever lasting life.

Seems simple enough, even a child can understand those words because I was that child at one time.  My fellowship with the Lord brought me more joy than I can ever say. 

I use to think when I was a child that everything good that happened came from my parents but the truth is, most of my very best memories came from the love of God and the church I attended that always found the money to send me to church camp or something special.  Do you remember the door to door witnessing??  Those were the days.

I was doing my Bible study tonight and the Lord reminded me of how much he loves all of us.

John 15: I will not write the whole thing but I do encourage you to read this chapter.  It's an awesome reminder of how much love the Lord has for us all and how he provides for us and prunes us and is there for us, if only we abide in him.

Psalm 1: 1-3   Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly. Nor stand in the path of sinner.  Not sits in the seat of the scornful. But his delight is in the law of the Lord.  He shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in it's season.

I love the word of God.  It's like an IV of constant love and instruction and encouragement to me.  I'm almost to the Psalms in my study and I am so excited.  Even though the entire Bible is important, I'm starting to get to the part that I've always studied and know.  It's nice to be reminded of the word and the encouragement with the beautiful Psalms.

I pray that you will read the scripture I have left for you and it will remind you of how much the Lord loves you.  The trials are hard and feel almost impossible but that's the love of God, pruning us and making us more obedient and stronger.  It's important if we are to be soldiers for the Lord.

In the samerespect, God surely doesn't fall short when he speaks of his love for us.  Over and over and over again he reminds us that he loves us and that all we have to do is submit our will to him and ask for the things we desire of him and he will give it to us.  The closer we get to the Lord, the more realistic our requests become.

I think about this man I mentioned in the very beginning of my journal and how much hurt I felt over the whole thing.  Now, as I have grown in the Lord, I realize that what I wanted was not the best thing for me and that God surely blessed me by not answering my prayers.

Sometimes I think he must look at me and just shake his head but no matter what I do, I know that he loves me and all I have to do is lay my sin at his feet and ask for forgiveness and he wipes the slate clean.

I hope this entry blesses you and that you have a renewed understanding of just how much he loves us.  God bless.

Friday, May 5, 2006


No one but another Christian could understand it when I say that I have all the peace that passes understanding.  I feel the strength and love of the Lord tonight and I am so charged up, just from reading Gods word.  It's truly all we need to find our answers.

I had such an awesome Bible study tonight, I just had to share it. The promises of God to answer our prayers.  We know it in our hearts and our faith tells us that all his promises are true but there's something about seeing it in writing that just fills the soul with joy from the Lord.

John 16:24 Until now you have asked nothing in My name.  Ask and you will receive, that your joy may be full.

1 John 5: 14 15  Now this is the confidence we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us.  And if we know that He hears us, what ever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him.

Jeremiah 33: 3  Call to Me, and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.

Matthew 7: 7-11 Ask and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks find, and to him who knocks it will be opened. For what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent?  If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him?

I believe the message is loud and clear.  Not only are we to believe the Lord and his promises but we are to directly ask him and trust him.  Not hope, but know that what we ask for is his will and his joy to give to us.  It's his promise to us all.

There's nothing like having a solid rock and foundation to lean on.  Someone you can always depend on.  Keep praying and believing and let's knock the enemy on his butt, in the name of the Lord.  God bless.


Thursday, May 4, 2006


Today is national prayer day, what a great day.  Not because my problems are all resolved.  Not because my trials are over.  Not because there is any relief in the suffering.  Today is a great day because it's like a national give glory to God day.  I can only imagine what it must feel like to the Lord to have so many people praying and giving thanks to him for all he does for us.  Like beams of light shining up to the heavens and I can just see the Lord basking in the glory he deserves.

I always worry because I know that the Bible teaches us to learn the word of God so we can be prepared if the enemy attacks.  I read my Bible every single day but my memory is so bad, I forget what I read right after I read it.  I think how can I defend myself from the enemy if I can't remember the scriptures?  I use to know them well but now I find there are very few I can remember.

I heard this minister talking about this very thing today and he said that he once heard another minister talking about this same thing. That minister pointed out that when you read the word of God, it cleanses your soul.  It's not a pointless effort to read the word of God, just because you can't remember it.  I hope that one day when I get to heaven, God will bless me for my efforts and the word of God will be there in my new mind and body.

I've been thinking about all the tragedy going on in the world around me.  Even in my very home, some days feel like I can't even get through it. I remember one of the first very tragic events in my life was when my big brother died.  He was only 25 years old and had a brand new baby girl, three weeks old.  I prayed and prayed that the Lord would bring him back.  We were so close, like peanut butter and jelly, the best of friends.  He always stood by me no matter what I faced and I have no doubt he would be here for me today.  It never made any sense to me that he had to die so young.  The best friend I ever had and he was gone.

It took a long time for me to accept that something could come between us, even death.  I remember when he was just a baby, maybe 3 years old, he always wanted to go live with Jesus.  He would tug onmy mothers apron string and tell her, " mama, I want to go live with Jesus.  When he was about five, he climbed to the top of a water tower, maybe 100 feet in the air or something.  When they finally got him down, my mother asked him what he was doing, he told her that he was trying to get to heaven.

I don't know why he was like that.  His whole life he felt no confidence or happiness in this life.  When he got older, he started drinking and doing drugs and all of us tried to help him but nothing did.  About a year before he died, he decided to try to get his life together.  He was attending college and working part time when he hurt his back.  Through all the pain and suffering, once again, he would pray with his whole heart that the Lord would just take him home.

Every time I think of him now and feel his absence, I think about his life and what it might be like today.  Still struggling with drugs and alcohol or worse.

Sometimes we just can't understand why horrible things happen to people that have such a good heart like he did.  He genuinely cared about people and loved the elderly.  As much as I miss him and as alone as I am with my family disowning me, I know that he is in a better place and that the strength of the Lord is my source.

I know so many of you are going through things that you just don't understand and you think that God has forgotten you or turned his back on you.  Please believe me when I say that he has not.  He loves you with all his heart and he is always there waiting.  Remember, God knows everything and sometimes, maybe when a young child dies or an elderly woman is killed, maybe that spares that person from something far worse.  Who really knows except God??

I encourage you to not be discouraged and to keep praying. Know that our heavenly father sits on the throne and he is in control.  When you are heavy burdened and your heart is breaking, turn to the Lord and he will hold you and keep you in his loving care.  God bless